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my weekend

So Saturday was fine was lazy did a few chores read a book cause the net keeps not working. then sunday came around (oh joy)

Started off fine net was still down, of fucking course goddamn time warner (there sending someone tomorrow to check it out btu still annoying as heck). anyways at around 2 something mom goes to the bathroom then all hell breaks loose

ami somehow gets the door open to the bathroom which the door knob doesn’t work so u have to lock it and i have no idea hwo a corgi could get it open btu she got it open. oh i heard a weird thunk before that thought it was ami getting the door open. turns out mom blacked out or something toppled forward off the toilet. so ok that sucks but what u dotn get is shes always sick with something she has a sponge kidney decease and in a seizure related accident (from meds) she has a broken back now, its better btu still broken. so im like omfg call 911 im 24 and it was terrifying. i kept my cool (kinda the operator had to have me repeat thigns cause iw as liek omg omg) unlike in the accident i was a cryign mess but this time i was the only eon home so yeah (i coudlnt even tlak to the operator then i had to hand my hone to this nice guy who stopped and he told her where we were on the highway)

so they ask me to try to get her on her back casue her breathings a little off and shes heavy im shakign i have no strenght for this but manage to get he less slumped over and breathing better. the paramedics come, that was sucky, she did wake by htis point but she was hell a out of it. they get her on the gernie, hwo do u spell that?, and on there way to the hospital which isent far form where i live. i still cant get ahold of my dad who jsut an hour and a half earlier went dirt bike riding but i got ahold of my fiance and he came and got me.

the only time i cried was when he got there then i got dressed real quick and went to the hospital. im nto sure if its healthy i havent cried since then i teared up a tad but not much i just feel numb and tired. so finally get ahold of dad whenim with ehr at the hospital, moms coherent but doesnt remember much and there doign a bunch of test on her. blood, scans shit liek that. dad switches with me when he gets back like an hour of less after i get to the hospital. and they released her that night and she seems to be doign well. im uneasy still btu i knwo amis with ehr and shell get me if it happens again shes an awesome guardian dog.

it was a weird day….and i was mroe freaked out about the crash cause one i was in it and seeing ur mom have a seizure and almost hit a car head on, i grabbed the steering wheel and we didnt, we hit the side a little and then hit desert tell we finally stopped, and then shes liek not waking up and yeah that sucked. i got away with a  few scratches and the only time i cried after everything and i calmed down knowing mom wasn’t dying was when mike(my fiance) dropped my off at home then i took a shower found some glass in my hair that was weird and yeah jsut tried nto to think and was numb the rest the time.

so jsut needed to vent and since no one really looks at my tumblr i figured why the hell not.

i do wonder if its normal to not liek cry much but then again ive been through a hell of a lot more cause of her. so yeah…i dont know…i hate my life its got a sick mom adn a house that make me depressed sicne its stupid hard to clean, its lieka  horders house but not that much stuff. and my vacuums broken and i want to vacuum cause amis a dirt machine and ugh i hate HATE cokatuus soo much i wish she was gone i hate that bird omg

uhhh i guess im done..so that was my weekend yep… oh and when mike got me a bird somehow got in his card that made me laugh it was pretty funny XD it shit on his steering wheel and his chair and yeah lol it gto out fine but man funny, it was easy to clean up thankfully too. oh and also even crazier sometime right after he left to get me his mountain biek got stolen out of his back yard which wasnt cool. sunday was a weird ass day